See? Man, I am in bad shape. I don't even know what I just said. Anyway.
I. Hate. Being. Pregnant.
Please note, I did NOT say "I wish I was not pregnant." because that would be patently untrue.
No, no...I love, love, love babies. Little stinky diaper-overflowing eating every 45 minutes crying for no reason smiling for the first time gonna change the world someday babies. And no offense to your babies, but I love my babies most of all. I love big families and I love my hubby and I love my faith and I love that God has chosen me, despite all my shortcomings, to shelter and care for His unique, marvelous creations. I am so happy to be pregnant.
But I hate it. Oh man...it is the pits. The puking and the exhaustion and the ridiculous cravings. The reflux and the sore back and the false labor. People telling you that you look like you're going to POP and then making that special face when you tell them you're only 5 months pregnant. Oh, and then the REAL labor. Although I have to tell you, labor is way more enjoyable to me than the 40 weeks of pregnancy, because a) you know this whole business is about to be over and b) no one expects you to change poopy diapers or take out the trash when you're in labor. Am I right, friends? You know it.
But just because something is HARD doesn't mean you shouldn't do it. In fact, a lot of things worth doing are going to be hard. They're probably going to suck. Because if they didn't suck and they weren't hard, then everyone would be doing them all the time and the world wouldn't so desperately need YOU to do them yourself. Like finishing that degree, or raising enough money to adopt, or caring for your little people in the way only you can so that when they have little people of their own, the whole earth breathes a sigh of thanksgiving.
So please know that through the fog of what will be the next 7 months, I am saying this prayer: "Lord, please just let me survive."
Plus, know that I will be enormous.
|Note that the baby born of this enormous belly was just barely 7 lbs. A tragedy I tell you!|