Thursday, August 23, 2012

Better than I Deserve

I'm thankful.  I'm excited.  I'm exhausted.

Those are my three favorite things.  Life is good.  God is good.

My sweet boy turns 5 tomorrow.  He came hurtling into this world at a break-necking pace and has been keeping us running ever since.  Some days I wondered how we'd survive as I held him in our dark walk-in closet, trying to soothe his screechy screeching, singing the Countries of Africa song under my breath because it was the longest song I knew and I could sing it over and over and over again while I prayed in the back of my mind for a time machine to transport me to future days when he might go to bed and sleep all night and talk and play and laugh at my stupid jokes.

Now those days are here and I am so grateful for every day with that crazy boy- mostly the good days, I'll confess, but even the very hard ones.

Yesterday he came running into the kitchen.  "Mommy!  Hey Mommy!" then "Wait...um...never mind.  I mean: I LOVE YOU!" and then ran out.  And really I almost cried.  Because I'm not always that lovable or fun or even interesting.  Mostly I boss him around and send him to his bed and offer up threats and bribes and make deals and roll my eyes.  At least that's how it feels sometimes.  But he loves me in spite, perhaps even because, of all that.

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And on Sunday, my littlest little will be baptized! My heart overfloweth.  And soon my house will overfloweth too- with friends and family and food and drink and no one will even notice whether or not the carpet is clean but I'm going to clean it anyway.  And scrub the bathtub.  And organize that mess of a closet. And try not to holler at people while I do it.

Even though I'm exhausted.  Because I'm excited.  And thankful.


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34 comments :

  1. He IS a sweetie! Happy birthday to him!

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  2. I wish I could be there! For both, 'cause I'd impose like that.
    Happy birthday, Happy Baptism, Happy Happy!

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  3. Awesome! My son (6) runs into the room and tells my wife, out of nowhere, that he loves her, too. Heart-meltingly wonderful. Thanks for sharing! Happy birthday, little man!

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  4. That description of the kind of mother you are sounds a lot like me :) What a sweet little boy you have...may he stay that innocent for a long long time!! And please to be teaching us more about this Africa song you speak of? I've got the state one but had no idea there was an Africa one! I suggest a video.

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  5. Love this! Little buys are the best! We have a four year old boy and one night I was dressed for a date night with Mr. P and had and awesome brown belt to cinch my dress. My son walks in wide eyed and says "mom you look beautiful!". "Thanks bud!" I reply. Then he adds "Mom you look just like bob the builder!". With compliments like that I have a hard time not being terrible
    vain!

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  6. Tear jerker! So sweet. Congrats on both accounts! My little man will be baptized next weekend--my biggest concern is hoping I can scrounge something together that will actually FIT ME. Ugh.

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    1. I have one "all purpose" maxi dress that I wear to every function at times like this. I don't even bother trying anything else at this point...

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  7. 2007 was a great year.

    You are now commissioned to do a vlog. It must be of you singing the African countries song. Bonus if the girls go in on it with you.

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  8. So sweet- I love the 3-yr post so much, I almost cried (what's new?)
    Thank you for the reminder to be thankful :)

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  9. Happy Birthday to your handsome man. He's going to be one awesome guy with all those sisters showing him how to treat a lady!

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  10. I have 4 boys, some big and some still little. And I can assure you, they ALWAYS love their Momma's!

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  11. Awwww! He is the sweetest. Happy 5th Birthday!

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  12. This IS reason for celebration! Enjoy every moment.

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  13. I have a 4 yo boy (#1) and we're doing lots of threats and bribes and bargaining and...etc. It's good to hear I'm not the only one! (Working on a better system, but - you know.)

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    1. If you figure out a better system, you let me know, okay?

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  14. Happy birthday to Paul, and happy baptism to Mary, and happy life to Dwija!

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  15. It sounds like there's a whole lot of love and a whole lot of happy going on - and that's wonderful to hear! Happy birthday to your little man!

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  16. You and me both, sister sue. I holler and eye-roll with the best of 'em. And they still sometimes call me the best mom ever! Just shows to show: maybe you CAN fool all of the (little) people all of the time! Score!

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  17. Birthdays and Baptisms - two great occasions. So many reasons to be excited and thankful and well, aren't we always exhausted?

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  18. My heart is melting! I feel like a MEAN MOMMY sometimes and then they give me hugs and kisses and melt away that frustration. They make the hardest things worthwhile.

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  19. Your sweet boy turns 5 and my big boy turns 16...Funny how you'll always think he is your little boy even then.
    Happy Birthday, Paul! And happy Baptism day on Sunday!

    Eliana

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  20. Your sweet boy turns 5 and my big boy turns 16...Funny how you'll always think he is your little boy even then.
    Happy Birthday, Paul! And happy Baptism day on Sunday!

    Eliana

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    1. I forgot that they're birthday buddies! And can he really be 16 already? I can't believe it...

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  21. Five is so huge! :) Love that picture of your guy!

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  22. I love this post :) I have a son who just turned 5 on Monday and I hear every word you are saying. I thought I was the perfect parent and then I met my boy :)

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  23. There's something about little boys. My 18-year-old still occasionally walks up to me and says, "Mom, I need a hug." Except now he's off to college and, well...enjoy every minute with your boy and Happy Birthday to him and Happy Baptism day to Mary.

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  24. What a wonderful weekend full of Blessings. There is not much better in this life than being grateful and knowing exactly who to thank! YAY!

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  25. Honestly? What you listed? That's my favorite combination. There's satisfaction so sweet in being exhausted and thankful and excited. Happy birthday to your boy. Enjoy the celebrations!

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  26. Just beautiful, Dwija. Such a blessing to follow your blog. ~Robin

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  27. Happy 5th birthday, Paul! Get dirty.

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  28. Awww...Happy Birth Day to you both. My oldest turned five too this year, and it's a big milestone, they are hilarious, opinionated and moody {like a teenage girl} But fun, oh so fun and full of love.

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